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My 4th of July holiday weekend started out great. On Thursday night, BF and I went to Kimos for a tranny fashion show. The party was "Tiara Sensation" and it was ridiculous in a good way. I got so freaking wasted (see pic). They had little craft tables set up for making fashion...things like stickers, scissors and construction paper. It was here that I met up with my good friend Kirsten.
 Kirsten on Van Ness Ave.
Eventually, we couldn't take the craziness at Kimos anymore so we went a few doors over to the Cinch. A couple drinks there then it was back to my house for an impromptu after hours and I swear I fell asleep before my head hit the pillow.
I was early rising on 4th sans hangover and ready to get into more trouble. We finally got out of the house around 2pm and headed over to Seans. We started getting the party started then, hell it was the 4th. We had to go to Nordstroms to drop off a house key and I already had a buzz going...that wasn't so much fun. I have never been a fan of going to the mall less than sober. Too many little kids around. I like to party with the big boys! LOL.
After running the errand, we went to a new bar...well, new to me...I had never been there before. It's a place called "DECO". Let me tell you, it was only 4pm but this place is actually pretty cool! It has 3 rooms, a pool table and a smoking patio (not that this matters to me since I still don't smoke). Sean and I played a game of pool and I won because he sunk the 8 ball in the wrong pocket...nice! It turned out that I had hooked up with the bartender years ago...funny, this city is so small. So everytime I would look at him, I would have flashbacks. We didn't stay there too long after that.
It was off to the Mix next. Another drink and then off to another bar, the Edge. This place was nasty! It was full of 30+ men and smelled like not only B.O. but also piss...and everyone was standing around in the funk as though it smelled completely normal! We couldn't drink our drinks fast enough.
Then, it was off to the cafe for some..hahaha...dancing...it was still light out. There was no one dancing. Another drink and then we went all the way down to the Embarcadero to meet up with some of Sean's fuck friends. Sean is 21 and I seriously forgot how much energy I had when I was 21...still it's nice to hang out w/ him because it kinda made me feel younger. We were walking to the Crab Shack when BF and I realized that it was 7pm and we were nearing the time for an outfit change and a face wash. So, we did a group hug and then BF and I headed back to our place to freshen up for the evening. And here's where the evening turns sour.
 Sean @ the Embarcadero
I had been calling Kirsten all day to see when we were going to meet up. The 4th of July was Kirsten's 30th birthday. We finally got in touch w/ him around 7:30PM and he told us to come over to where he was staying (Fort Mason) at 9:30PM. With the fireworks traffic (it was colored fog again this year), we didn't get there until about 10pm. They were obviously on illicit drugs and we were really just not on the same level. Kirsten was a bitch, we were ready to get back to the Castro to meet back up with Sean. Words were exchanged with the final sentence from Kirsten was along the lines of, "Maybe you should just leave then." And off we went...back to the Cafe in the Castro. We met up with Sean again and by this time, we realized were were just stupid drunk. So, we put ourselves on time out on the smoking patio and at 12AM, I said to BF, "You wanna go?" He shook his head so we vacated the premises. We managed to get a cab pretty quickly and were home pretty quickly too. It was an event-filled day and definitely one of the better 4th of July's I've had.
I awakened yesterday morning to the sound of Kirsten's voicemail where he called me a "Tall Cow"...anyone know what this means? And a text that was both bitchy and unnecessary. Here it is...
"We are in charge of what we create and carry with us...And that's integrity, integrity to uplift those around you and responsibility to own your choices. I hope you choose to own your enjoyment or lack there of, as it's up to you what you give not what you get!"
I texted back with (and taking into consideration the voicemail)...
"Whatever. Call me names if you wish. I tried to be a part of your day and you told me to leave. It was a complete waste of my time going to D's because if I would have known that you were going to be a bitch, I wouldn't have even came over. I called you more than once after we left D's and you ignored those calls so we left the Castro (truth). You can get your friends to convince you that you are the victim and I'm so evil or whatever but please take a look in the mirror this morning and ask yourself if you are really so innocent."
Ok, so reading both of these texts, I realize that they are both very weakly formed arguments and I'm not really sure what the issue between Kirsten and I is exactly...but he never called me yesterday and I didn't call him and it really hurts me because he is one of my oldest/closest friends and since he lives 1000 miles away in Michigan, it kinda sux that we aren't hanging out while he is visiting. I think what is probably happening is that he is doing K or coke or some other hard drugs and he knows that I don't do that stuff these days and is shutting me out because he is choosing the drugs over me. This is the most logical explanation for our disconnection and/or that D is perpetuating it...D is not a fan of BF or I. So, whatever, that't the whole story and I'm not calling Kirsten again. If he wants to hang out with me again while he is here, he will have to reach out first.
Well, it is Sunday now. I have had it with all the partying and plan to have a nice sober relaxing day to prepare for work tomorrow. I can't believe it's July. I'll be in Hawaii next month after my 29th birthday! Then the Janet Jackson concert, the Madonna concert, a new President elect, Jayme's Thanksgiving visit, and then it will be 2009! This year is just flying by...I can't believe it. Ok, time for yoga...I hope you all had a great holiday weekend!
 So Freaking Wasted
<3 Frank Paul :)
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